Tuesday, January 31, 2006
today will be damn busy i assume? going 8 ppl's hse bai nian.. wooT~! lmao~ den i guess wil be staying over @ kenneth's hse ler.. diao~ reach there sure super late liao loh.. zZz.. yawns.. no slping for tonight.. lols.. not gonna update today.. juz blog for e sake of blogging.. a habit? lmao! shOO!! Happie New Yr To All!!!!!!
there will be me , katherine , sheralyn , gui fang , richard , desmond , kenneth , wee cheong , dolphin andf jeffrey.. =P
XiaoHui (= ;
Monday, January 30, 2006
its e 2nd day of chinese new year ler.. time flies so fast eh? cool~ last night was playing mahjong.. aw.. new yr is a gamblin season~ lmao.. manage to win 3bucks? wat the hell? lmao.. still losing bad.. cant even win baq my lose money.. hahas.. neber mind..
saw this meaningful nick in my msn contact.. " time does not ease the pain.. time lets u get used to e pain " well.. i find it pretty true.. but.. haf i really eva suffers from a pain before? lmao.. i'm heartless alright.. lols.. ppl said time will heal all wounds.. after i came through this nick.. i find it so wrong to tink it tat way alright.. time dun really heal all wound.. it onli allow u to get used to e pain.. cool eh? juz something to share lahs.. lmao..
aw~ 2nd day of chinese new yr.. n now i'm rotting @ home ler.. will be @ home whole of today i guess? shops are nt open.. sians.. wanna go shopping.. aw!! i wanna watch "Fearless"!! i wanna watch "i'm nt stupid 2" arh!!! i wanna watch.. lmao.. actually wanan watch memoirs of geisha.. but.. i scare disappointment lehs.. some ppl say nice.. some ppl says nt nice.. diao~ *confused* i think i should digged out 50 bucks to waste it on movies.. lmao.. =X
after new yr will be my chalet.. after my chalet.. will be valentines' day.. lmao.. e time is so tight now.. aw~ i wanna work.. sigh.. short of money now.. sigh.. wednesday who wanna go supermarket shop shop wif me? wanna get my chalet thingy.. =)
thursday i'm organising ice skating!! dudes!! i'm organising ICE SKATING ON THURSDAY!!!! okok? =D update u guys again~!!
XiaoHui (= ;
Sunday, January 29, 2006
Happie Chinese New Year To All!! =D
well.. every yr's chinese new yr is getting more n more bored.. sians.. sigh.. e atmosphere is getting worst.. unlike wen we r young eh? sigh.. red packets is getting lesser n lesser... lmao.. =X wel.. it's ok lah.. juz worried abt my chalet.. aw~ e red packet so little how to affort my chalet thingy leh? sigh.. worried.. laughs.
went relative hse in e morning.. aw~ e dog keep licking me.. eEEe!! =X lmao.. i'm attracted to him? hahas.. =X laughs.
juz got home from grandma house =) err.. was gambling juz now.. lose abit 30 bucks i guess? lmao.. nt my day i guess.. sigh.. juz couldn win any of e game.. -.-'' @ night still needa play mahjong.. someone pls pray hard for me.. =P hehehe.. so tired now alright.. juz feel like sleeping.. sigh.. how how how? lols.. kinda bored now.. aw!! nothing is entertaining me.. lmao.. =X
last night saw wj online.. chatted wif him no reply.. den kinda late i went in maple.. saw him den he chat wif me.. while while onli also.. cuz brother wanna orh orh ler.. den still unable to get my monitor baq lo.. sigh.. he say this coming saturday.. hopefully can make it bahs.. ganna scoldin for it.. sigh.. forget it.. arg~
den was chatting on e fone last night.. kinda feel sorry for everything.. sigh.. wad should i do? =( arg~ can i turn baq time? hmm.. sigh.. diao~ dun wanna update ler.. =) ciaox!!
XiaoHui (= ;
Saturday, January 28, 2006
last night din manage to update.. cuz i reach home too late.. mood wasnt good.. some ppl juz din wan to reply my msg.. zZzz...
yesterday went baq to skool.. met ms ang.. cooL! =X e stuff room sux now alright.. e rest is alright.. a sense of ex-greenviewian.. but kinda sad.. ppl having commends on me.. sigh.. everyone's reaction was.. "wah! wad happen to u! change so much! last time more pretty lah.." i was like.. "diao!" lmao.. should i be sad or happie ner? zZz.. no idea.. den went shopping for my new yr top @ bugis.. =) bought my top ler.. hehehe.. GREEN!! =PpP lurving green n purple @ e moment =X lols lols.. e both most sucky colour! but i lurve it now.. =P
in e night.. yea.. kinda moody n feeling quite miserable.. well.. temper is getting worst recently.. why? wad happen to me? sigh.. e thing tat bothering me made me lidat? i still cant believe all those stuffs.. can i believe it or juz forget abt it? sigh.. this feeling is coming baq.. =( i dun like it.. sigh.. it's like suffocating me.. =( hais..
after wad she told me.. my mood become worst~~ sigh.. i shouldnt noe in e fest place? or those things r e things i should noe? sigh..
this feeling makes me so sick n tired.. sob.. i noe i shouldn be there.. sigh.. din expect things to turn out this way.. every problem is making me sick n tired of my life.. someone bring me to e world whr "hurt" doesn exist? sigh.. pls pls pls stop everything.. explain everything n juz step forward.. sigh.. dunno wad i toking also.. hais.. everything hiding in my heart is trying to escape.. i cant hold it any further i guess.. i needa let it out somewhr.. anyone i can rely on? sigh.. i wish i can rely on u.. =( but i cant.. cant.. cant... CANT!.. =(
alright.. today is chinese new yr eve~ lets be happie n forget those unhappie stuffs =) cheers.. =/ HAPPIE CHINESE NEW YR TO ALL!!
XiaoHui (= ;
Thursday, January 26, 2006
last night visited chalet =) nv overnight.. she checked out last night ler.. cuz no ppl staying.. so checked out in e night ler.. lols.. well.. last night went fisherman da bao stingray from desmond.. hmm.. thx desmond for e discount alright =) =)=)=) lols..
went fisherman wif baby.. yea.. he took me there.. dunno wad happen to him also lah.. lols.. maybe he juz wanna be alone i guess? his mood looks bad.. lols.. neber mind.. =) =) =) before fetching e stingray from desmond.. we went around pasir ris park.. e wind is fantastic alright.. enjoy e wind.. lols lols.. was so tired last night alright.. aw~ feel like sleeping so much.. lols.. juz a scent of e water.. aw.. hahas..
last night had some bottle of alcohol.. 10% onli.. nth much.. lols.. everyone drank some.. i guess i had a little bit too much.. lols.. it din really drunk me lah.. juz feeling abit hot and high bahs? it waken me up after tat? lols.. alcohol is nt a nice drink to haf.. sigh.. lols.. dun drink it too often =) gonna haf it in my chalet too.. lols.. laughs..
last night i think he drank too much ler.. dunno wad's he is talking i guess.. sobering? lols.. should i take it to heart to juz forget it ner? hmmmm? well.. lols.. will u tell me? laughs.
today is a tiring day for me.. feeling kinda tired today.. aw.. haf been watching e tv since i woke up.. sigh.. makes my mood so down lehs.. sian.. so sick.. aw! new yr approaching soon!! diao~! sian.. dun wanna blog ler.. shOo~~ bubyEee
XiaoHui (= ;
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
juz came baq from katherine's chalet =) [5.45] yeahs! lols.. kinda fun.. well.. kinda tired now.. sigh.. injured my big big little toe~! lols.. long story i shall say.. =P neber mind.. nt important.. ppl feeling guilty now.. lols.. =P manage to slp 3 hrs i guess.. hee.. =P nt too bad lah.. hehe.. lata going baq to her chalet again.. should be around 7-8+ bah =) gonna bring dem dinner i guess? =D i'm e chief wor.. hehe.. =P no lahs.. onli some hot dogs n stingray.. =P
alright.. last night i won 5 bucks from desmond.. hehe.. was playing blackjack.. den suddenly become low n dun feel like playing ler.. sigh.. wad happen leh? diao.. no idea.. lols.. noe this little xiao hu li eh? wee kian i mean.. err.. kinda shy guy~ lols.. din tok much also lah.. tat damn kat ask me entertain him.. dunno wad can i do also lehs.. lols.. juz tok some rubbish wif him lohs.. after gambling.. everyone left e chalet exept e few of us.. yeahs! den we went prawning!! =D i was so excited abt it ok? lols.. =X laughs.. cuz i nv prawn before u see.. hahas.. can u imagine i catch e prawn alive on my hands? oh gosh~! =X laughs.. dey must be thinking i'm so sua gu.. lols.. kinda adventure for me.. =P din noe i'm so daring also lah.. lols.. juz happen to make "fren" wif e prawns.. dey caught alot alright!!! =P hehehehee.. cuz i'm there obviously! =X lols.. wadeva! =X
den we visited husaini in e mac on e way baq to chalet after prawning.. =) cool~ was damn hungry alright.. =D hungry hungry hungry.. lols.. oh yah.. i met ian~! lols.. kinda shy little guy.. i mean boy =X he looks so young!! oh gosh~ cant believe we r on e same age alright.. ~.~ looks like a kid to me.. lols.. yesterday noon tok to him on e fone kinda long too.. laughs.. i think kat jealous.. =X laughs..
went baq to chalet slp.. den e rest went out cycling exept for me n kat.. DEN!! wat e helL~ tummy upset come again.. sigh.. haven recover.. sigh.. i think e damn BBQ made it.. arG!! super weak tummy.. damN~ zZzz.. feel like vomiting.. lucky got panadol =D hehehe.. shall nt further details.. lols.. so lengthy~ =P
alright.. its was cold in e night.. so few of us left in e chalet.. ~.~ lols..
alright.. gonna return to her chalet agaiN! waiting for ppl to fetch me there.. lols.. =X
XiaoHui (= ;
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
updating on a little on yesterday ^^ .. went genki sushi wif baby.. erm.. its embarrassing alright.. ~.~ i ordered tons of sushi assuming tat both of us can finish it.. lols.. end up.. we can finish abt 5 plates of dem.. oh gosh.. we r like wondering how r we going to finish it.. hur hur.. lucky didi work there.. =P he helped me cleared most e plates.. oh gosh.. cab u imagine.. both of us is full till gonna puke out.. totally no energy ler.. lols.. nvm..
had a "wonderful" night huh? lols.. well.. wad can i say? lols.. its a moment u made me nt think of my worries n sorrows.. thx.. =) sorry for e things i done to u.. laughs.. dun mean it yeah? hahas.. den i called mummy @ 11+.. she answered e fone.. god damn it.. i msg her asking her to call me e fest min she reach singapore lehs.. hmpf! ^%$#@&(& lols.. never mind.. @ least i found her yea? =) alright.. den i waited till 12 sharp!! I CALL E DAMN ZABOR!! lols.. =X wanna wish her happie birthday wif all my heart hoh~ den e fone nt wif her.. neber pick up my fone.. cool~! lols.. i still count down for u lehs.. bo xim.. =X hahas.. jkjk..
den wen i reach home.. i saw her online.. @ fest i tot she slp ler mahs.. den nv ans my fone.. den i ask her y nv ans my call.. she said her fone inside her room.. cool~ lols.. KAT!!! Happie 18th BUrf`daY!! may all ur wishes come true eh? a new yr a new start~! forget those sorrrows n sadden memories.. =) i'm always by ur side wen u needed me =) ok? gurl.. dun eva shed any tears for any guy again.. those r nt worth it =) alright gurl.. my birthday wish is u to be happie always alright? =) cheers!!
today going kat's chalet!! weet!! =P kinda excited abt it oh~ lols.. haiya.. her boi nv go.. sigh.. its a little wasted.. sigh.. remember of mine too.. sigh.. nvm.. juz pray he come tonight ok? =) we r gonna haf lotsa fun!! =D drunk us up tonight!!! =D gonna haf a wonderful night =)
XiaoHui (= ;
Monday, January 23, 2006
Sigh.. Why Said Those Words To Me Which Make Me Feel Like Keeping A Distance From U? Sigh =( i rather u haf said nothing in e fest place boy.. =( sigh..
last night was toking on e fone wif kat for near 3 hrs? let out some of my sorrows.. sigh.. after talking on e fone wif her.. realise some unpredictable consequences.. kinda worried now.. wad will happen in e present n e past.. sigh.. i nv expect things to turn out this way too.. sigh.. juz hope tat it wun turn bad as time goes by yeah? sigh..
actually fest thing come to my mind to let out something is baby.. i sms him.. but he din manage to reply.. i find it hard to breath after hearing some news.. sigh.. he's still nt there for me wen i'm down.. sigh.. but den i was toking on e fone wif kat =) katt.. i decided to let bygones be bygones on "him" its real tired.. sigh.. making me so hard to breath.. sometimes juz feel like sobbing.. after i hang up e fone wif kat.. tat baby finally reply.. sigh.. din help much either.. its like i'm e one who cheering him instead of e other way round.. laughs.. no help~ lols..
well.. lousy! still say nt slping.. zZz.. din slp last night.. was reading this teenage magazine last night.. its on valentines' day issue.. sigh.. began to worried abt my valentine's day.. -.-'' aW~ will my prince appear? hmm.. sigh.. i guess this yr valentine's day gonna stay @ home n watch tv... lols.. who wanna be my date? =PpP
sigh.. somehow i feel being alone is a better choice.. some ppl jus dun listen to me.. i ask her dun do it.. she do it.. i ask him nt to worry he worry.. i ask her to stop thinkin abt it.. she keep thinking.. sigh.. dun wanna be e burden.. =( wanna be my good listener.. juz sit by my side n listen to wad i said.. tat's all e ask for =)
XiaoHui (= ;
Sunday, January 22, 2006
well.. i'm real tired of everything now.. real tired.. hao lei hao lei hao lei.. =( sigh.. can i leave everything to someone else? or someone juz make me lost my memory? smash on my head or something? sigh.. having such memory is a pain~ sob.. ~.~ a gurl who used to be so strong now became so weak~ wad happen to me? AHHH!!!!! lols.. (=
alright.. have been rotting @ home for 3 days ler.. have been thinking lotsa things.. juz feels tat there r still things i needa let out n some needa keep inside me.. there r things tat r said out dun help.. juz another burden to dem if dey noe e fact.. ppl will keep worrying me. n keep thinking abt me.. its such a waste of time doing it for me.. sigh.. 1 person suffer better den all suffer yeah? =) these 3 days @ home is a tough one.. its making me sick.. now kinda suffering from throat inflame =( sigh.. slight cough n tummy upset.. sigh.. new yr is approaching~ juz pray tat everything goes fine before new yr starts.. =) crapz..
last night was chatting wif qian qian!! =D she brighten up my day by saying she gonna buy me a purple boots.. =X hehehe.. cant wait to hear her good news lehs.. =PpP muz bring me good news wor.. hehe..
actually was kinda worried abt my chalet now.. sigh.. everything is nt plan @ all.. i'm having so mani nights of chalet.. dunno wad can i do in these nights.. sigh.. scared to hear ppl who fail to attend my chalet.. sense of disappointment is crappy.. sigh.. how i wish my dudes could plan everything for me.. laughs.. will u guys? laughs.. nvms.. lols.. well.. will i get my wish all done? lols.. FULFILL!! =D
last night was sms-ing this little chap.. zZz.. wait for his reply really can make me puke blood n die.. still say reach home msg me.. kns.. waste my time waiting.. i think u reach home slp like a pig ler.. forget needa msg me ler.. u asshole.. lols.. guys cnt be trusted.. =/
last night was cold.. somehow juz wish someone could be there for me n hug me in their arms.. hmm.. i stand up from my bed n approach my granny n hugged her.. around 4am+.. i think i scared her yeah? lols.. i went baq my bed n kinda sobbing.. hmm.. wad did i actually lack of? sigh.. probably care n concern.. no idea.. juz hope i could be special in everyone's heart.. =)
XiaoHui (= ;
Saturday, January 21, 2006
hmm.. hey guys.. dun worry abt my "missing".. juz wanna get over something n will be alright a few days lata =) ppl asking "wad happen to u?" err.. i'm alright lahs.. juz need some space to breath.. lols... thx for u guys' concern wor.. =)
last night had a wonderful night.. thx baby =) feel abit better after i said out some stuffs.. e weather for tat night is fantastic =) e night really makes me think alot.. =/ my mood is really bad in my heart.. sigh.. there r still stuffs tat it's so hard for me to let it out from my heart.. sigh.. =( really hope it disappear soon.. soon... sooon.... ='( it's making me couldn breath from e tight hole.. aw.. [who cares] zZz..
i'm sick.. yeah.. thx to "him".. who allow me to had such a "wonderful n delicious" supper last night =X no lahs.. joking.. its really tasty.. but e food juz dun suit my tummy.. =( cuz.. my tummy is damn weak =( thx hell god.. i nv end up in e hospital again =/ e pain make me couldn slp last night =( sigh..
srry kat n gf.. neber reply ur msg-es.. hmm.. too late to realise it is an excuses lahs.. juz dun feel like replying.. srry.. hmm.. went SP today yeah? yesterday i went ler.. dun feel like going again.. its real bored.. i go far east also nothing to do.. sigh.. sick is a punishment i guess.. muahha.. lmao.. =X
wad should i do today? well.. wun be using com till tml ler.. =) sms me.. i'll reply u wen i feel like it.. =P will be rotting whole of today i guess.. cant do much stuffs also lahs.. damn tummmy.. zZz.. sHooO~!
XiaoHui (= ;
Friday, January 20, 2006
shyt.. my mood is utterly bad still.. bleah~ wad happen to me? eva since e day i went junction 8 wif kat e other day.. my mood has been bad.. =( anyone tells me why? =( everything seems to hurt me after tat day.. =( cheers me pls.. sigh...
last night got this lamer call from dunno who.. today den i realise is jeremy! god damn it.. call me in e middle of e night 3.30am.. crazy boy!! dunno wad survey thingy~! siao de lah.. wad say recommended by gf.. dotx.. all rubbish.. i tink he juz wanna disturb me sia.. ask so much question.. diao.. -.-'' needa wake up so early somemore.. zZzz... gonna bash him up wen i see him.. zZz..
today went singapore poly.. meet ping early in e morning 9.30.. siao zabor.. duno wan me go so early for wad.. -.-'' well.. nth interest me over there honestly.. juz walked around.. enter e library.. use e com for awhile.. walk around sp.. its a pretty big skool yahs.. its much more much more bigger den tp i can say!! oh gosh~! much more to explore alright.. its juz like a small city in e town.. which included fast food resturants , shops and etc... more n more.. arh~~! neber mind..
well.. juz feel a sense of gap in between us.. we haf no topics to tok abt @ all.. =( all e while in e train was so quiet.. sigh.. wat happen to us leh? =( we drift ler mahs? sigh.. it sadden me.. sigh..
sigh.. baby still dun wanna tell me wad happen =( sad.. arh!! will u share wif me? sob sob.. u asshole.. =X will u?!?!?!?!!
daMN~ sigh.. i think i gonna gif it up~ learn how to let nature takes place.. =) its tiring.. yah? lols.. take it or leave it.. i'm going to play some game wif everyone.. u guys wun be seeing me for e time being.. let me "Missing In Action".. see who found me fest.. =) well.. good bye.. *wave*
XiaoHui (= ;
Thursday, January 19, 2006
Sigh.. y are u ignoring me againz.. =( sadden.. sigh.. it's juz like out of e sudden.. since yesterday online.. i chatted wif u.. i sms u.. sms u 3 sms.. din even reply one of dem.. wad happen again? sigh.. its a feeling of losing.. =( sigh.. it makes my mood bad.. sigh.. =( reply me plss....
blog changed.. cuz something happen to tat blog.. sigh.. dunno wad happen.. seems like some symbols cnt be seen anymore.. so decided to use baq this skin.. eh? nice? hmm.. i think i still like this little gurl =) take me e a fairyland where "hurt" doesnt exist =) e feeling of being ignored is nt good.. sigh.. tell me wad happen to u.. will u? sigh
yesterday went far east wif kat =) bought my new yr skirt ler.. cost me a bomb again.. sigh.. still haven bought full set of it.. hais.. still left wif e top.. sigh.. yesterday was so tired alright.. juz came baq from genting.. den din slp much.. yesterday went out again.. mentally so tired.. aw.. after tat went bugis.. =) find pheobe.. laughs.. after tat go shop shop awhile jiu went home ler.. yahs.. was kinda leg tired.. reach home cnt use com.. sigh.. didi nv work =( arg! fustrated over something!! zZz..
last night chatted on e fone wif ian n kat.. hmm.. till 4.30 i guess? so lousy.. 4+ slpy ler.. =X lols.. well.. conclusion abt e conference.. well.. din expect we click too.. yahs.. but mostly lame stuffs.. cuz i'm born lame i guess.. e onli thing tat can cheer me up is to being lame.. =( sigh.. will u reply me? =( sigh....
XiaoHui (= ;
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
wEet.. i'm baq from genting =) yahs.. haha.. was having lotsa fun.. *wink* too bad.. e outdoor theme park sux.. =( everything is under maintenance.. sians.. so we din went in.. yeahs..
we were having so much fun jumping here n there.. e fest night was fun eh.. which e onli day i dun call e guys a man..
u noe u noe? dey wack me like hell? oh no~ i dun wanna say too much of it.. lata dey cry.. kenneth n richard wack me wif their pillows alright!! its 2 against 1 lor.. so pain.. ouch! fest night.. we spend e night tough.. how to put it in words leh? err.. but something happen really fun lahs.. =X kissing? hugging in pics? bitting? =D cool~ hehe.. lols.. nvm.. shall nt mention much.. its our secret yeahs? =X
second night.. hmmm.. e games were grosh! err.. dumb lahs.. nvm.. hahas.. gotta lots of fun video clips.. =PpP.. shall show it someday oh?
e days were fun lahs.. but its too short ler.. should haf book more days.. =/ hais.. nt enuff fun~
one more thing i needa mention!!! last night.. which was e second night.. somebody slap so hard on my face cuz of mp3 eh? i was like wth? duH~ nobody eva slap me in my face so hard[exclude games].. i kinda feel hurt.. thinking baq some stuffs.. i cried inside e blanket.. but feel kinda touched tat all of dem concern me so much.. especially gf.. thx so much.. but really.. i juz feel being left alone tat moment.. wanna get rid of some unhappy memories.. =) well.. den dey wana go eat mah.. i dun wan.. cuz my expression nt good ler.. den ken came in.. its like everyone came in after tat.. so i bo bian.. hais.. sigh.. so go loh.. =) baby said sorry to me.. but i ignored.. arh! i'm damn pissed @ e moment.. diao.. dui bu qi.. zZz...
alright.. tat biatch called me slut wen e return.. cooL~! we took cab home.. yeah~! chatted wif wj.. =) alright.. i miss everyone here!! =D i'm bAq~~
XiaoHui (= ;
Saturday, January 14, 2006
juz online juz to blog.. mood wasnt very good these two days.. still feel he's avoiding me.. =/ nvm.. i guess he gonna leave me.. =( no one gonna cheer me up.. how can =( nvm..
now adays keep countering some problems.. =( how i wish someone could share wif me =( hais.. kinda lotsa things were hiding inside me.. =( wad happen? i'm going weaker n weaker.. =( arg~~ hais.. sigh..
din wan to online today.. left 12 more hrs i'm off to genting.. wun be updating bloggy for days.. =) gonna haf fun there i guess.. =) fang2 was sick.. arg~ she said should be able to recover by tonight =) yeahs.. lols..
juz now was making my nails.. damn.. e glue sux.. lols.. cuz my nails break into two den i was in china.. arh!! remind me of e angry angry incident.. lols.. nvm.. zZz.. so i bought e box of nail arts.. nice nice.. =) hehe.. but.. lols.. nvm.. i too picky ler.. let it be.. =)
oh gosh.. i'm getting excited abt tml.. =) i'm sure i cant slp tonight.. wanna conference? =X oops.. lols.. hahas..
a mp3 cost 170 is cheap.. i guess.. so far after lotsa surveys.. hm.. still considering wanna buy~ arg~ but i luv e ipod nano so much leh =( oh dear.. i'm so confused.. =( after new yr den got enuff cash.. ag!! needa a job~~!!!! ppl pls employ me.. pls pls pls employ me~!!! [who will employ a lazee bum bum] laughs.. zZZzzz
arg~ dun wanan update ler.. i'm god damn hungry~!!
XiaoHui (= ;
Friday, January 13, 2006
last night was mapling.. saw him in maple.. talked to him.. no reply.. den i was near him mahs.. so i go find him.. actually was scared.. =/ scared it really hurts me.. i found him.. he was killing.. =( den he said he juz got baq.. so coincidence? =( den i asked abt afternoon.. he says he was ignoring me.. was concentrating on e game.. he told me he was in e bad mood and wanna be alone.. well.. wad can i say though? sigh.. dare nt tok to him.. ~.~ kinda feel he's avoidin me.. well.. perhaps i'm wrong in my thinking? juz lack of too much communication.. =(
last night was chatting wif tt person.. well.. she's kind of too sensitive n think too much ler.. oh gurl.. i'm sure he cares more abt u den me.. dun think too much eh? sigh.. its silly to think tt he cares more abt me den u.. dun be silly.. =) as i said.. hais.. relationship.. arg! i'm gonna remove it from my dictionary..!! sobbiex.. sigh.. there's no such things as "give up" or to "force it".. y nt think another way in e sense tat.. "let bygones be bygones" or Let nature took place?
maybe for me.. i tk it too lightly ler.. perhaps? i dunno.. sometimes i juz feels tat i need him =( but he always nt there for me.. hais.. sigh.. but i guess he wun need me for a single min.. too naive thinking eh? i'm a negative thinker.. lols.. laughs..
last night.. my mood is real bad.. =( oh gurl~ y nv reply me? >.<~~ sobx.. i feel so bad last night.. hais.. needa let out something!! baby din make my mood good too =( sorry! >.<>
>>11.10a.m~~~
i'm baq to continue.. [10.55pm].. juz reach home after meeting jeff to pass him tat 2 pieces of paper.. -.-'' hmm? neber mind.. =) i'm haf a kind heart.. lols.. went bugis wif fang2.. =) shop around.. n bought my stuffs.. =X its embarrassed to say out wad i bought yeah? lols.. some fake stuffs.. =X nvm.. after tat go find pd jie jie.. her job god damn relax seh.. wif "yandaos" around.. cool~ lols.. =X uncles i mean.. =X lols lols lols..
fang2 was feeling god damn unwell.. her face were so pale.. she feels so cold.. hais.. going genting ler.. how can fall sick.. i'm worried for u.. >.<>
stil shopping around after sending her off by cab.. tried on e ebase skirt.. e design is nice.. but dun look good on me.. =( why why why?!?!?! oh dear.. lols.. neber mind.. =) save money.. =PpP
OH NO!! i MET E UNCLE ON MY WAY HOME!! BLARDY HELL!! i tried to run away.. but he called me.. i pretend to ignore.. but.. still no choice.. he talked to me.. ask me y nv ans his call.. nv reply his sms n stuffs.. n wad happen tat day.. oh my god.. he asked pretty lotx question.. i juz tell him st8! i'm meeting my bf now.. sorry.. in e rush.. lols.. n juz walked off wif a wave.. =) [smart] laughs.. he dun get it huh? duH~ zZz..
budget for new yr clothing is 100bucks.. given by mummy... hehe.. cuz i nv work mahs.. =X so good to me eh?lols..
well.. mood of e day.. keep thinking of those stuffs still.. >.<~ but nvm.. din really show it on my face.. still hiding it inside.. =( wanted to call him today.. hais.. no courage.. it really hurts me.. =( sigh..
XiaoHui (= ;
Thursday, January 12, 2006
some ppl ignoring me now.. dunno wad happen.. diaos.. [frustrated] (laughs) neber mind.. nt important.. unless he lied to me.. =/
yesterday go change e cd!! oh dear.. e calendar is mend to be lidat.. how? =/ hais.. short of 6 months.. =( not good.. waste my money =( sob sob sob sob sob!!!
last night slp kinda late.. was waiting for some ppl's reply.. duh~ tat person reply god damn slow =X wait n wait n wait.. den fall asleep =X lols.. u made me slp.. cool~ hahas.. was listening to a new album too.. yups =) hehe.. Track 08 - Ai Qing De Yan Se is nice.. =) it make me very comfortable.. yeah? hehe.. =) smiles..
woke up around 11+ today i guess.. e rain hit my face.. den i woke up.. arg!! such a good weath to slp~ dam rain.. =/ tried to go baq to slp.. but? cant.. so juz wake up n play e com =) hehes.. was mapling e whole of e "morning" lols..
=) crazee of mapling now adays? err... nono.. game is nt important in my life.. lols.. juz a leisure hobby i guess? arh!! i'm so bored today =( bored bored bored..
still considering wanna go out lata.. =( jeff jio me go bowling lata.. arh!! den baby n gf going also.. =) oh no oh no~ how can i left jeff out leh? arH!! [craps] tryna digging my money out.. oh dear.. i'm so broke alright.. yesterday spend a bomb on e damn sakae sushi =X nvm.. worth it.. lols.. =X
still deciding~~ deciding~~~
XiaoHui (= ;
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
i'm here updating agains.. =) yups.. gonna write it in point form =D so long nv write in point form ler..
- woke up @ 11am today (=
- was mapling wif kenneth awhile
- den was mapling wif baby
- den dunno wad happen.. things seem so unnatural.. so stop playing n disconnect everything
- after tat he sms something which strikes me [dun be silly]
- i come baq online n msn wif him (=
- everything come to normal again.. like in e past.. (=
- went out.. around 4+ (=
- went to change CD and haf my wonderful dinner (=
- its e most important thing to do wen u r feeling moody is haf a wonderful meal (=
- had my wonderful meal @ sakae (=
- my mood is good after eating and wif e company (= [thx so much for ur accompany]
- went to hunt for cap.. couldn find 1 .. so nv buy.. (=
- after den.. visited times.. (= learn something new in there.. (=
- after tat we r parted n went home (=
Don't Let You Throat Tighten With Fear
Take Sips Of Breath All Day And Night
Before Death Closer Your Mouth
XiaoHui (= ;
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
i'm baq to update abt today.. well.. went jeff's house played mahjong today.. was kinda lucky.. =) won kinda lotx i guess.. but.. after tat i spend away all my money ler.. dunno wad happen also.. -.-'' bought e "yang chen ling" de 'ai mei' =) e songs were nice.. yups.. =) lyrics were nice.. e guys were handsome and e gurl is beautiful =) e poster is nice.. but god damn it!! e calender is missing!!! damN~ tml go down change.. i dun care~ hmpf~ insult to her alright.. but!! i'm nt a fan of hers.. =/ juz tat e songs r meaningful~ duh~
juz now.. i almost cried.. i dunno.. e words sound juz hurting to me.. i juz say bye bye n walk off from sheralyn's void deck.. he says.. "u lah.. angry @ him.... " blah blah.. cnt remember.. he mean i make him dun dare to come.. well.. since i'm e obstruction to him.. fine lohs.. i leave~ pack up my stuffs~ n juz leave e place.. no words left other den bye bye.. @ fest i'm alright.. juz angry.. den while walking i saw jeff cyling ahead.. tot he's leaving.. i mean going off i guess..
after tat.. nvm.. richard came along.. well.. ignore everything n blast my ear wif my mp3.. i dunno wad happen to me.. seems like everything irritates me from yesterday till now.. zZz.. wen he came along walking me home.. i juz feel like crying.. tears filled my eyes.. he tried to block me along e way.. hais.. wad happen to me? my mood really makes me so bad? =(
oh boi~ i need u.. will u ease my pain? =(
XiaoHui (= ;
din manage to update yesteray cuz i reach home kinda late.. yahs.. yesterday wasnt my day eh? almost cried out.. wad a rotten luck.. =( firstly.. meet katherine.. i was late.. i'm sorry.. e damn bus driver is pissing me off ler.. den wif e damn weather.. rain rain.. hais.. den secondly.. went taka.. well.. turning round n round.. still couldn find him.. make me already abit pissed off.. den i was like so fustrated.. hais.. A GREAT DISAPOINTMENT ALRIGHT!! zZz.. shouldn haf gone there..
thirdly~!! went junction 8.. shouldn haf gone there in e fest place.. =( he dun wan to see me.. he dun wan me to see him.. due to some silly reason.. =/ den he says he's angry @ me.. hais.. sadden.. forthly.. i shop around junction 8.. e colour of shirt i wanan buy sold out.. den nv sell e skirt i wan also.. hais.. everything is nt my day..
Fifthly.. was taking neo-prints eh.. e fest machine we took.. damn.. its a faulse one.. we r like so blur after having 6 shots.. -.-'' diaos.. kinda waste of money.. hais.. abit pissed me off..
after tat.. sixthly~! met jeffrey @ whitesand to pass me money.. wanted to eat delifrance.. diao~ no eating inside already.. cuz closing.. =/ damn hungry alright.. Seventhly!! went kaya thoast.. no eggs~!!! diao~ i was like... everything dun haf.. shyt~! hais.. pissed.. end up eating some kaya bread.. den den den!! eighthly!! ask jeff help me buy corn.. oh gosh~ onli 3/4 cup filled~~!! hais.. sians.. everything already pissed me off~~
ninthly.. below my blk wen jeff n rich cycled me home.. someone broke my new heels[boots].. i was like.. hais.. dun wanan say anymore.. this really makes my tears almost rolled down.. =( den jeff msg me wen i got up to change.. asking me nt to throw my temper wen i got down.. richard very sad.. so i've got to hide everything inside my heart... e feeling wasnt good.. nt good @ all.. =( i'm a gurl who need to let out everything.. hais.. well.. no choice.. dun wanna hurt ppl's feelings.. anyway.. dey help me repair e shoe ler.. still.. needa buy new one.. hais.. =(
lastly~~ i finnaly had my dinner!!! tat's e happiest thing happen on tat day~! alright.. i shall stop here...!!!
XiaoHui (= ;
Sunday, January 08, 2006
Still rotting now.. aw.. finally get to use e com.. "siansation".. lols.. nt using it long too.. hais.. sians.. finally watched finish my dvd.. yeahs~! e ending is saddening alright.. =( e main guy died.. becuz of e gurl he lurve.. hais.. sad.. any guy wana die for me? =X lols..
rot my day off yeah? sians.. came online also onli can awhile.. everyone is @ home today.. aw.. how warming.. lols.. jkjk.. i haf a damn warm family.. hehes.. =X
tml going out to hunt for new yr clothing ler.. wif katherine.. yeahs!! hehe.. tml gonna buy tat skirt down.. no matter wad.. lols.. oh gosh.. my bill come yesterday!! was shock of my bill alright.. was so damn cheap.. i wonder.. wondering.. lols.. my mum was damn hapi wen my bill is so cheap lohs.. but? who pays? still i pay for it loh.. diao.. no diff.. juz some encouragement.. lols..
today unable to contact him.. i guess.. cant use com so recently ler.. maybe juz online juz to blog my daily life bahs?
he wun use msn too.. neither i'm interested to go maple find him.. duh~ if he misses me.. he will call me isnt it? lols.. lets dun think so much.. i wun call him either.. =)
yesterday went shopping spree wif fang fang.. had a long n great chat wif her.. well.. understand her wad's on her mind.. =) last night she smsed me.. telling me dun do stuffs tat's silly.. she asked me to promise her.. i dunno wad's she thinking now.. i juz replied i promise her i wun do silly stuffs.. i find it hard.. to understand.. hais.. bleahs..
i'm off to my rotting night again.. ppl who read this who r willing to entertain me.. pls sms me or call me.. =( i'm real bored @ home..
XiaoHui (= ;
Saturday, January 07, 2006
I'm baq for posting agains.. hehe.. a poem to share.. spot it somewhr in e webbie.. =) meaningful.. kinda sad..
Eyes burned with tears unshed,
Stubbornness won't let it fall.
It hurts from what it sees,
And blinded by what it saw.
Heartaches glisten its lashes,
Thousands of tears kept at bay.
Saw all the painful scenes,
But no strength to look away.
The sorrows of yesterday,
Reflected brightly in its shine.
Its innocence and loneliness,
Became one as it entwine.
It never thought the pain,
It felt would ever fall.
Until the heart cried,
And broke its only wall.
Blinking it away,
A single tear rolled down.
Hitting the heart at home,
Slowly it begins to drown.
Pitter patter of the eyes,
Crying for a dying heart.
Posture broken down,
Emotionally torn apart.
XiaoHui (= ;
yesterday.. totally got no idea wad happen to him.. it makes me feels tat he's avoiding me.. tok to him.. he pretend to be dao n nt replying me.. e feeling is nt good.. he dun wanna tell me wad happen either.. e onli thing i can do is to stand aside waiting for him to tell me wat happen.. =/ hais..
heard a sad case over a relationship.. if e gurl really luvs u.. she would contact u everyday.. can u imagine if ur gurlfren dun contact u for more den 2weeks? duh~ u call her ur gf? tt's sound like a fren to me.. hais.. well.. she dun worth for u to luv her.. blah.. i shall nt say anymore.. =)
everything is bad yesterday.. everything is bad last night~~ everyone seems to ignore me.. i got no idea.. hais.. i'm feeling so low.. =( low low low~~~ lucky ken nv ignore me.. =) he talked to me.. hehe.. all e rest~? hais.. i dunno wad can i say.. especially u!! zZz.. blardy hell~
went shoppin wif gf today.. =) shop around bedok n tampines.. was searching for cap.. arg~ spotted one~ oh gosh~ it cost me abt 25 bucks.. din bought it.. =/ hais.. so ex.. bleah~ nvm.. went this fashion.. saw one jump suit.. arg~~ my new theme for this new yr will be jump suit.. hehe.. =X currently searching for jump suit.. lols.. =PpP any suggestion? lols..
katherine's burf`day coming soon.. kenneth burf`day coming soon.. oh gosh.. mine too.. awaits.. hehe.. it gonna be a fun party~! =D
XiaoHui (= ;
Friday, January 06, 2006
very angry angry this morning~~ desk gone.. hard drive gone.. everything gone.. diao.. it is mine~ how can he took it away without my permission? =( hais.. even if monitor is baq.. tt doesnt help me @ all.. =/ hais.. sadden.. dun wanna mention anymore.. =/
alright.. this pic is taken on.. 4th of jan i guess? its a wed.. =) yummy~ lols.. its a lame pic lah.. i'm juz too greedy abt food.. bleah~ i noe i noe.. i'm greedy.. =X nvmz..
arg~ haf been mapling e whole of e afternoon.. so tired now.. e weather so good good now.. gonna haf a nap after blogging.. =)
arg~ still very angry angry =( arh!!!!!!! nt my day~~~~~ bleahs..
wanna get out of this house now.. =/ its raining~ raining~~ raining~~~ lols..
i'm shoo~~~ bubyEe~ dun wanna update ler.. e world is complicated now~~
__Wanna Be Someone Special In Ur Heart__]]
BREAK E PAIN INSIDE ME~~~
XiaoHui (= ;
Thursday, January 05, 2006
e one in white hat is taken in MRT on my way to Junction 8 =) it was 2nd of jan.. hehe.. cool eh? the neo print was taken yesterday.. after meeting gf and sheralyn @ night for their dinner @ long john silver.. =) consist of gf , sheralyn , a dumb dumb and my baby.. e one wearing cap is me..[of cuz] i wore a cap recently cuz.. my hair style sux now~! =X without cap.. i wun step out of e house yeah? lols.. thinking baq @ e hair stylist make me so angry angry.. lols.. cut my hair till so short short.. [angry angry] neber mind.. no choice eh.. cut ler.. gotta wait till it grows baq..
last night slp kinda late.. yeah.. lols.. went cycling.. =) so tired.. woke up @ near 2pm i think.. forget ler.. short term memory.. =/ or earlier den tat? nvm.. doesnt matters.. lols..
oh gosh.. still having my damn holiday mood.. lols.. NEEDA A JOB!! =X lols.. didi went genki sushi interview today.. i also wanna work wif him.. w8 for his approval bahs.. =) den i ask him pull me in =X =PpP
going genting on 15 16 17 is confirm ler.. consist of me , fang zai , a d umb dumb , jeffrey and baby.. juz e five of us.. louis last min cnt make it.. due to some matters.. sadden.. lols.. juz e five of us will do.. oh well.. e dumb dumb nv go genting b4.. =X wanna expose his "sua gu-ness" hahas.. =X e eldest among us.. lols.. i'm sure we'll haf lotsa fun~ =)
arg~ today is bored.. =( last night played maple.. he left his character there n go bath n slp ler.. arg~ lols..
den chatted wif mr nic.. a fun guy to communicate wif lah.. lols.. but his temper so bad.. hahas.. i was so tired den.. lols.. so i wanna hang up n went out.. hehe.. abit late.. but e way he tok to me sound so alike like mr paul.. hmm.. weird.. lols.. nvm..
this afternoon.. i saw baby's nick.. hahas.. he says.. "babe.. i need u~~" lols.. =X
XiaoHui (= ;
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
oh dear.. skool reopens ler.. everywhr i go seems so dull now.. ppl r skooling.. shopping centres r so cold.. business r bad.. jobs r available =) hehe.. gonna find some jobs.. juz got rejected.. cuz e boss dun wan employ ppl wif dyed hair.. hais.. sadden..
last night had a fight wif my mummy.. due to some reason.. say i change ler.. =( she say till family is nt important to me.. hais.. i cried.. =( but no ppl console me.. i need some consolation.. ='( she keep saying i always go out till so late.. stay @ home also nv tok to dem.. keep hiding myself inside e room or playing game.. hais.. do i really changed? =( everything strikes my heart.. real pain.. =( [[ease my pain..]]...tears rolled down...
last night played some games.. doesnt really makes me enjoy too.. =( gb din played well.. ppl got abit moody n din played well too.. =( tired of mapling.. hais.. =( dun seems to be my day.. everything is my fault.. srry~ den he so dao.. hais.. nvm..
alright.. its 10.24am now.. so early blog eh? lols.. cant slp last night.. =/ woke up @ 8.. slp @ 4.. hmm.. mood is bad.. still din tok to her.. =( wad happen to me? hais.. or i really change ler? ppl will change also mah.. i cant always remain as wad i am.. >.<~ [cry out loud] ppl grow n change.. =( hais.. this really makes my mood bad..
less den one month to my burf`day =) but e chalet haven book.. dunno can book anot.. sians.. hais.. i'm now troubled by damn chalet now.. hais..
going genting on 16/17/18 wif kenneth , louis , jeffrey , richard and fang =) Bought e tickets =D yeah~ its a morning trip.. =) wil be reaching there around afternoon 2+ i guess.. hehes.. i gonna miss u.. lols.. played pool today.. oh gosh.. rusty like hell =( hmm.. so embarassed.. lols.. den took some neo-prints.. pretty fun n cute =X hahas.. den ate dinner.. saw nad n guys.. chatted wif dem n shoo we went off.. lols.. arg~ sians.. buBYEee
XiaoHui (= ;
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
din manage to update yesterday... reach home too late ler.. was kinda tired.. =( yups.. juz woke up from my bed.. lols.. well.. i noe i noe.. i pig =X lols..
alright.. started off wif yesterday eh? hmm.. met up wif fang and pd =) my outfit looks bad.. lols.. cuz my hair looks bad.. so needa wear a cap on u see? lols.. so needa wear abit jap jap de.. arg~ nvm.. my hair sux now~~ we went junction 8! lols.. well.. pretty lots of things to shop eh? we shop for abt 5 hrs+ i guess? lols.. bought a perfume again?! -.-" oh dear.. recently bought so mani perfume.. =/ e packing is nice alright.. lols.. so i bought it still =X e smell is great too.. well.. dunno wad happen to me eh? recently haf a little collection of perfumes.. =X hahas..
well.. alright.. we took an hr plus to go junction 8.. and took 40 mins to come baq.. err.. kinda weird isn't it? lols.. we reached there abt 2.50 i guesS? haha.. was searching for e sookee shop.. -.-" so hard to find.. went round n round n round.. we walked pass once e shop.. n din realise it's sookee.. err.. hahas.. we were there laughing n laughing.. din noe we r abit dumb dumb.. =X we found e shop ler.. but dun dare to go in.. lols.. cuz we dun intend to buy anything mah.. go in weird weird lidat.. after tat.. e two notti gurl go in.. damn~ so i got no choice.. so go in as well lohs.. chatted awhile.. pass him e stuffs.. n we go for our shopping spree!!! =X
saw one top @ ebase kinda nice leh.. =( cost me 35 bucks.. but din buy =/ arg~ save money save money~ going genting soon~ lols.. come baq den buy~ =X well.. shop here n there.. den we go baq entertain him again.. so busy lehs.. zZz.. den we left e shop again.. lols.. continue our shopping~!! =X
din realise he called me.. lols.. well.. juz nice we abt to tell him we r leaving ler.. juz den e step out of junction 8.. e two guys called.. -.-" richard n jeffrey.. diaO~ dey told me dey r under my blk playing bball.. ask me whr am i.. how long to get baq there.. den e motive is want me to dabao food for dem.. i was like.. -.-" damn~ how sweet dey r to me.. duH~ dabao mac for dem.. =) how sweet of me.. say thx also dun haf.. -.-" bleah~ well.. more to update.. but so lazy to update in details.. zZz.. nvm lah.. ask me urself alright?
last night went mapling.. arg~ den he nv reply me? hmpf~ stayed there around 10 mins i think.. still no reply.. den i left.. was so tired.. den cnt use com also nehs.. =( miss MY MONITOR!!! he said e thing i bought nt nice.. "y playboy?" sobx.. cuz i think tat 1 nice mah.. he prefer plain plain de.. aiya.. sad leh.. =( hais.. [i'm real sad after hearing it alright] =/
today~ rot my day off yeah? was watching dvds whole of today.. tat's all? =D bubYEe~~
XiaoHui (= ;
Sunday, January 01, 2006
31st`dec`o5
oh gosh~ juz reach home after counting down.. =) went downtown count down.. gosh~ it was so crowded yeah? =) wanted to go dancing.. hmm.. e place is like flooded.. =( hmpf~ e music rox yeah? hehe.. dance my heart off.. lols.. gosh~ i'm so tired now.. =(
today rot my day off.. watched some dvds.. hehe.. some korean series lahs.. =P cry n cry n cry =( e story is real touching alright.. hais.. =( neber mind.. noone will understand.. hahas..
well.. today is a bored day.. dun wanna go count down de actually.. hahas.. wan dem to haf their "er ren shi jie".. den gf like angry angry ler.. =/ so went down still lohs.. but still feel extra extra lah.. lucky jeff went down ler.. hehe.. arbo i really go home ler.. lols.. dinner on baby~ hahas.. =X cuz he late.. too far out~! he's 40 mins late alright.. make gf w8 for 40 mins.. is he a man? lols.. always late... zZz.. next time learn from him.. hate ppl to be late.. maybe one day i shall angry @ him.. zZz.. *pissed*
wah.. today went park on e way to downtown.. saw so mani lovely couples.. *envy* lols.. err.. saw some smooching.. lols.. *blind*
weet.. richard and jeff visited under my blk after sending fang home.. lols.. so touched tat u guys called me.. hahas.. =X thx.. =) happie new yr!! =P
arg~ i'm so tired nehs.. =( hao lei hao lei ah~!! lols..
jobs wanted!! jobs wanted!!! someone employ me pls~~~~~ broke ler~!! hmpf..
nothing to update ler.. =( bubyEe~~
HAPPIE NEW YR TO EVERYONE~!!!!
1st Jan`2oo6
arg~ still rotting my day off by watching dvds~ sobbies.. nvm.. hehe.. today mummy n didi came baq from paris.. weet~!! miss her so much.. haf been more den 2 weeks i last seen her alright.. =P she bought me a perfume.. arg~ perfume again~ i bought one in china already.. lols.. neber mind.. yeah!! i'm visiting junction 8 tml~!!! =X oops.. hur hur.. yeah!! lols.. *excited* hahas..
tell u guys a secret eh.. i nv been to junction 8 b4.. =/ so "sk" .. hahas.. zZz.. neber mind..
HAppiE 2oo6!!
a new yr.. a new life.. a new start of my life.. it's a new semester of my life again =) all e sad n sorrow stuffs shall be forgotten again.. =) yeahs.. hahas.. well.. saying is easier den wad we done.. i can do it.. =D
i wanna start a new me.. =) which mean tat.. i wanna change e style of my life.. =X hmm.. found out my change and understand e new me.. =) alright? hehes.. bUbyEssS~~~
XiaoHui (= ;
