Lost In Beauty-

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

yea! 2nd post of e day! =P juz feel like blogging.. i had my dinner! finally! =P daddy drove us to 139 for dinner.. yum! and after tt we headed to GEYLANG for some DURIAN! YUM! nice nice nice!! gosh.. to e max! =D noe how ex it was? he paid 3 for like 60bucks?!?!?! AW! but it taste GREAT la.. thx daddy =P i'm juz indulge in durians recently.. WoohOoO!! =P

yea! blading session is GREAT today.. perfect weather for me.. and i sweat alot.. felt SHIOK! =D wOoHoOo! thx for ppl who standby me.. yesh! i really felt so great wif u ppl around.. lurve it..

dyed my hair again =X looK! nice highlight?? =X hahaa.. and juz now an aunty came to me and said.. "girl.. ur hair is nice.. where did u do it?".. oops.. its done by myself =X hohoho.. =X mummy says.. she's blind.. -.-'' SHUTUP! she say its nice mean nice.. =X hohohohooo..

gosh.. im fuckingly surprised tt he actually SMS-ED me TODAY!!! shocked out of my life.. he reminded me to eat my lunch.. y did u make me think of u again?!?! WHY WHY WHY?? i tot u dun care?? dun dun care abt me for e sake of caring.. i dun need.. or its becuz u felt bad? or juz sympathy? ARG! so many things pop out from my mind.. ill stop thinking.. ARG!!

VrOoOOM! tml shall be a new month! august is coming!! WoOHOO!! NEW LIFE.. NEW MONTH!! NEW MOOD! =P

XiaoHui (= ;

random shots of lilo =P

she says she wans to go out.. I NEVER BULLY HER! i let her out =P

there she came back to me.. cuz i'm giving her fooood =P LOL LOL

and i close e door.. she's unhappy..

she frown @ me.. telling me.. "why did i close e door" ... aw.. cute story? =X

TADA! my home-made salad.. MADE BY ME ALONE!! =PpP look disgusted? but i tell u! it taste SUPER-licious! it makes u fly to e SKY! =X suppose to make it next week for some reason.. but! i dun care! OH YES! mummy's BACK this morning.. MISS HER TO E MAX! =D woke up early n go MARKET spree!!! =P she says she feels like eating my salad.. here we GOOoOOOo.. =D

i went market wif mummy in e morning to buy my ingredients =PpP little secret to share wif.. juz a ingredients itself only =X things inside r.. "salt, pepper, colestraw, thousand island, potato, prawn, hams and eggs" and e damn PRAWN cut my finger =( ARG! wen i was peeling e shell.. e damn head cut my fingers =( HATE IT! i'm gonna EAT you up! =X lalalalaaa..

well.. honestly.. i wish u happiness.. dun come to me anymore.. u'll hurt me.. so juz stay far away from me.. FAR FAR FArrrrrrr .....ya.. tt's all.. i'll stand up myself.. and i'm gonna clear e mess myself.. =) dun disturb me anymore.. no more...... ur came-by news i knew yesterday merely allows me to-cant-take-it.. juz so coincidence my assumptions are so RIGHT.. maybe this is e impression tt u gave me which allow me not to put in.. =) smart choice.. wow.. i can be some.. "suan ming shi" [ppl who fortune ur lifes] so.. go on and be happy.. =) i blew all e blessing to u last night.. so pls catch it..so byebye to u..

i'm gonna have my blading session LATER!! WOOhOoO!! VROoOOM! i swear! i'm not gonna fall.. and e weather is burning hot! GOSH! i'm TANNING!! =D BYEEee!

** Starhub says: "For the life that i love.. i'm a hub." so hub it..

** M1 says: "One Life.. Live it.." . so live it..

** Singtel says: "The Choice is yours. ". so e choice is still yours..

**xiaowee says: "I made the choice to live it. "

XiaoHui (= ;

Monday, July 30, 2007

i hate u..

i hate u...

i hate u....

i hate u for making me so miserable... i hate u for everything for wad u've done to me.. i feels my karma.. yes.. its gonna over.. i'll be back to myself soon =) u failed this test! and im gonna say byebye to u.. i bring my courage to call u and tell u those stuffs.. u happily enjoyed urself and HANG my blardy phone.. GREAT!!

everything is diff now.. u've change. u dun used to treat me this way.. look back @ e times.. u bought me royce chocolate times.. i love e old u.. not now.. and farked?! u could like someone else in juz one or two days.. tat's e most hilarious thing i knew.. gosh.. tt's wad u call love.. remembered u said e word "forever"? and u said it to me...!! gosh.. how fake it is.. i nv told anyone i love someone forever before.. if u said "forever".. u mean it.. and not saying juz cuz like its drama.. FOREVER?!?! it sound more like never ever to me.. please dun say it to ur girlfriend-wanna-be e word 'FOREVER'.. it sound _____________....

ive come to my sense this afternoon while i was blading in e rain.. dumb isnt it? but it eventually wakes me up from my drowning stage.. =) i was damn drenched... i finally hopped on my blades alright.. LOL.. and i fell.. a big joke right? haha.. well.. im sick..

well.. i did cried in e rain.. and i told myself..i'll not feel sad for u anymore.. i force myself to LOOK DOWN on u.. u r another heartless man i met again.. U DUN FEEL ANYTHING wen i called to tell u all THOSE! FARKED?! tt's not-being-xiaowee.. im not like this.. i felt disgrace doing tt.. and seriously i REGRET IT! hate me!!!!! hate me for saying all those.. u'll feel better isnt it? and u fuckinly dun give a damn wen im fuckingly sicked! and u can happily go POWERHSE wif ur DARLING! WOW!! [CLAP!!!]probably u've already HUGGED AND KISSED HER wen u r drunk on ur wednesday night @ st james.. and u probably felt guilty..

u dun worth my TEARS anyMORE! u jolly well smsed me "its too late" last night... u said it urself and i take it.. i'm withdrawing my feelings towards u (=

i gave my BLESSING to both of YOU.. please be with each other happily.. and love her FOREVER.. be sweet to her.. like e old days.. ppl would say.. "ai ni 1314 3344" gosh.. said it to her and make her happy.. my final words to u.. i cherished u..

byee.. and enjoy ur "fortunate" life now..

***** i removed u from my "hard disk"..

**** i keep u in my "recycle bin"..

*** soon.. i'll put u in e air..

** den u'll disappear..

* u r always in my heart..

XiaoHui (= ;

Sunday, July 29, 2007

i lurve e sotongs.. =(

alright.. my last day @ lagunita spa =( pretty unbearable.. sigh.. e people there makes me so UNBEARABLE!! i love dem to e max.. AW! hate to leave dem.. i know u ppl wans me to stay! but.. u noe? pauline is such a two face "head" therapist.. so.. meaningless to stay on.. sigh.. i'll still CALL u ppl!! cuz i gonna miss u girls to e MAX!! MAX MAX MAX!!! =D

we had our big big big last feast @ bedok market place.. =) we had those food.. it looks nice.. yes! its a delicious.. but i onli ate a little from each.. =( cant eat anything.. ARG! but @ least i ate something.. =) all of dem were so shocked?! but.. u noe? sigh.. girls who were there today! YULI!! JOANNE!! VERONICA!! JOY!! gosh.. so appreciated =P

yea.. last day @ lagunita.. and i had my pervertic customer =( andrew ong.. he's well-known in our spa as.. guy-who-dun-like-to-wear-underwear during treatment.. so i forced him to wear if not i wun commerce e massage.. so ya.. as usual.. he does "pumpings" during e massage.. god damn it.. FARK YOU! and wen i turn him around.. his fuckingly thing "stood" up! FARK! i pretend i see nothing and continues wif my massage.. -.-'' blardy hell.. U RUINED MY LAST DAY @ WORK ASSHOLEEE! =X

**** u gave me lessons not to love anyone again..

XiaoHui (= ;

Saturday, July 28, 2007

tadpoles caught @ e pond.. =D

hundreds of THEM!!! CUTEEEEeeeeeeeeeEEEEEEEEEEeeeeee

my treat to rex @ lerk thai.. all my fav food actually =X i hope u enjoy it k?sorry tt i left half way n rather early.. cuz i think my mood is real bad.. i din manage to enjoy @ all.. =( very sorry.. will pay it back to u k? =) promise..

today's NDP preview i think.. e freebies are UGLYyYYy!! it comes in lots of colours.. red, yellow, blue, green.. its a sling bag.. real uglyyy =X oopx.. haha..

back to laguna today.. ppl say i slimmed down.. well.. quite true.. been eating RAW maggie leh!! =( no appetite @ all.. =( until today.. sigh.. i felt _______________. fill in e blanks pls..

found hundreds of tadpoles @ e pond today.. CUTE.. seriously.. it've been years i last seen tadpoles.. primary skool?!?!?! haa.. back to old skool! =P memories flash back.. catching moths.. playing crocodile.. zero point?? gosh.. tons.. =P miss dem loads..

***i feel like loving someone......

XiaoHui (= ;

Friday, July 27, 2007

after shower! =D skinny =( she always dun eat.. WHY!

after blown! =D back to its shape.. =P

i let her wore her shorts.. her period is coming.. arG! most headache thing.. so i need her to get used to it.. she keep biting on it!! WHY!

my mood is still low.. low low low.. WHY WHY WHY??

been eating raw maggie everyday.. alright! EVERYDAY! =( maggie running low.. ppl out there pls sponsor me maggie mee..... lols.. supper outside din really fill my mouth.. cant even turns on EVERYTHING.. BLARDY HELL!

i guess it affects me somehow.. ARGS! why why why?? damn it.. my life changes.. its e bad climate time.. hate it..

been stucked @ home since monday! =( i'm sad.. u noe? @ home!! =( dun even haf e mood to go out.. rather "sianx" and lazyy.. e weather is SO GOOD!! gosh.. i could sleep througout e day and night =X lols.. i'm gonna become some pig pig pig.. =P im gonna stuck wif GTO later =PpP dun stop me pls..

im suffering from some stomach upset for days.. WHY?! i keep going to e toilet to do BUSINESS =( ARG! spare me plssss!!

HAPPY BDAE TO REX!! =D he has turn 24! =X oops.. i noe i'm not suppose to reveal it.. =P u r 24! haha.. =X stay happy always k?!?! always look on e bright side of life and hope u find ur happiness very very soon! =) tml's dinner on me k? cheers.. MUACKX!!

sorry cuipin for chasing u away e other day.. sorry for not letting u sleep.. sorry for disturbing u while u r sleeping.. ARG! u've been saying it for days.. i'm S.O.R.R.Y!! =( why keep saying?!??!?! =( im sad... i felt BAD alright.. seriously =( =( =( [COVER MY EARS!!!]

****Where do i stand?? What am i to you??

XiaoHui (= ;

Thursday, July 26, 2007

alright.. i was rather emo now.. fuckingly emo now.. sadness real strikes me this time.. this post is juz for particular u.. u noe who u r..

::::: Firstly.. i juz wanna say sorry to u.. this is e onli strongest word i can think of.. i knew i hurt u deeply.. or maybe not so deep.. but i knew u do cares alot and cherish alot.. i do cherish all e things u done for me.. seriously.. everything i said now is from e bottom of my heart..

i'll nv forget e times we spend together.. watched movies, shopping, go malaysia, having ultra-licious food together, juz everything.. i'll remember forever in my heart.. i cherish it..

i felt tt this relationship is so dead. which i nv had it before. honestly i did tried to like u.. yes. i tried.. but i felt so hard. sometimes i feel so bad wen i was thinking of someone else.. i did not make u happy @ all.. neither i'm happy. it takes two hands to clap to achieve. layman right? but i juz cant bring myself to open up. maybe u r not e one.. perhaps someone else.. and i made this choice.. now tt i choose not to continue. and i know tt u r gonna leave me.. and not be friends anymore. i felt rather sad..

maybe its ur past tt stops me from going on.. or maybe ur past really affects me alot.. or maybe i shouldn ask so much abt ur past @ all.. i once asked u.. am i e one u really looking for? am i e one u wanna have it? will u regret? now??? u regret? and i knew u'll be there cursing me.. "u this fucked up girl" "she's damn fucked up" i know... u've been saying these words abt amanda and candice.. so u'll be saying abt me this way to ur another girlfriend.. i swear i'm gonna haf my karma.. =(

i think i told u in e beginning tt i dun wanna lose u.. so end up i still lose u. i cant do anything now.. we shouldn started @ e 1st place.. there should be a margine drawn between us. well.. everything is too late..

one more thing u must know.. im worry abt u last night. yahs.. i feel like scolding u.. and yet u din even ans my fone wen i called u more den 10 times.. so fucked it.. u should know my temper. since u want it this way.. den we shall not contact anymore. im angry.. im sad.. im juz pissed off.. wads e meaning of replying me.. "does it matters?'' fark. if i dun matter abt it.. i wun be bother to ask u.. forget it..

all memories will be folded into my dairy.. i'm gonna remember everything.. sad memories shall erased away.. i'll keep u in my heart always.. ***cheers..

XiaoHui (= ;

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

been watching [恶魔在身边] e whole day =P e 3rd time i watching it.. well.. i still feel sweetness in e story =X hoho.. ppl who have not watch it should juz watch IT! =PpP

rots my day off.. finishes off all my house chores! YEAY! and i miss mummy alot =( mummy gonna be back coming tuesday! =D cant wait.. i gonna hug her wen she's back.. HOHO!

tml gona be my another boring day.. well.. i shal shower lilo =P my fav pasttime!! WOOhOOoO!! love her to e max.. i shall try to meet up my bitches tml!! =P i miss u bitches!! =D

***where's my 恶魔??

XiaoHui (= ;

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

look @ this stupid face of eric.. he sent this to me -.- i dun understand why he wans to disfigure his own face -.-.. its not cute @ all alright.. -.-.. stupid assholeeee..

rotting my day off again =( yawns.. alright updates on last night =)

i slpt @ abt 5+ alright.. i mean.. i manage to sleep soundly after 5+. a call woke me up.. lol.. -.-'' i was damn sleepy..! -.- me n my fugly slut chatted till abt 2+ and she BTH liao.. LOUSY! well.. juz hope everything is gonna be fine =)

i'm losing my appetite. i dunno why.. =( i cant ate a single thing since morning.. WAD HAPPEN TO ME?? same to yesterday.. onli manage to ate something @ night.. which is e nasi lemak.. tonight? gonna sleep till full i guess? =(

was watching "zai shuo yi ci wo ai ni" by andy lau.. ermss.. thou i watched is umpteen times.. but i still cried =( damn it.. e story is fucking touching.. WTF! its abt heart transplant from andy's wife to another girl. due to accident.. andy's wife passed away.. and andy decided to stay abt e girl side as she's having her wife's heart.. aiya.. touching lah.. =( =( =( sad ending thou.. ARG! sob sob sob...

XiaoHui (= ;

Monday, July 23, 2007

bOo! i'm updating bloggy! =D

been rotting my day off! =( WHY WHY WHY?? damn it.. boring! my life is getting more n more boring.. ARG!

met up wif xiaocui for dinner =) he brought me to changi for e nasi lemak.. well he said its a well-known nasi lemak.. din try it before.. hmm.. overall nice lah =) thanks =D pls drive probably next time -.-'' u almost knocked my head u ass..!

after dinner.. waited for my un-pretty slut to come to my house.. =X haa.. fugly slut =X we chatted half of e night.. and she's sleeping like some pig behind me now.. $%^& blardy ass right? and i'm here to update bloggy since i cant slp.. -.-"

called up xiaopang.. he din picked up..

called up xiaocui.. he din wan to talk to me.. ARG!

i wanna SCREAM! i think i should juz goes to bed now!!

and tt blardy ERNIE sent me some stupid links and i'm fooled!! U WATCH OUT u blardy HELL! -.-'' u better shut ur mouth or i'm burnt it.. -.-''

XiaoHui (= ;

Sunday, July 22, 2007

i saw this woman wen i was on my way home on train.. look @ e LV luggage!! god damn it.. its more den tt alright.. tt damn blardy aunty carries a LV hand bag, a LV ipod pouch, a LV luggage, she wores a LV shoe.. and wore a GUCCI watch.. BLARDY hell.. FUCKING cocky.. LOL.. onli manage to take e shoe and luggage.. =X probably her wallet it LV too.. I WAN TO OWN A LV WALLET TOOOOO...

met up wif ERNIE!! GOSH!! xiaohui & ernie

been 7 YEARS we've not met!! believe it?? he's my primary 6 classmate.. merely forget abt it =X haa.. my primary school memories is fading.. dunno why.. haa.. we do loads of catch up.. LOTS EH?? haa.. din expect we haf so much things to say la... but its like.. we met 7years LATER!! he changed so much.. gosh.. last time he was like 12yrs old?!?! =X shorrt little boy.. haa.. NOW?!?! tall n huge.. ppl do change..

last day working @ "the pines" =) its god damn unconvenient for me to work there.. juz so inconvenient.. =( dun likes it.. but e money is god damn ATTEMPTING! =X haa.. but money i spent of transport is like part of e money.. SIANX!

yea.. this saturday gonna meet up wif rex and guys =) miss u guys tons =) we gonna haf fun k?!?! wooohooooo..smoking is bann from clubb.. WAD A STUPID IDEA! arg!! ASSHOLEEEESSS to e LAW!

been raining these few days.. =) weather is NICEEE.. =D lurve it..

everything seems i dunno

XiaoHui (= ;

Saturday, July 21, 2007

today i worked @ "the pines".. a spa @ Pines country club near orchard =)

i had my untrl-licious mango desert wif xiaopang =) YUM!

i felt cold after e desert!! ARG! check this ultra-licious @ hong kong cafe @ cineleisure =)

worked @ "the pines" today.. new concept.. new environment.. nice overall.. take a look @ my working place =P click here

great money!! =X yups.. nice atmosphere too.. =) but its juz too far from my HOUSE! ARG! hate it wen its like this.. =(

after tt met xiaopang @ my country club =) we went shopping.. HOHO!! bought a shorts from giodano and a shades from cineleisure..!! yeay! *all satisfy =) after tt went hongkong cafe.. met cherlyn there =) another clubbing siao girl.. LOL.. ppl going chiong tonight.. i tml gotta work..

this morning alarm is such a ________. hate it.. dun wanna wake up.. not enuff slp.. damn it.. LOL =X well.. i miss e night =(

*** wats e meaning of "i dunno"?? would u explain it to me?? stop telling me u dunno.. i wan an answer from u.. plsss....

XiaoHui (= ;

Thursday, July 19, 2007

juz woke up from my nap.. dizziness stikes me.. HAIS..

been outside whole of last night. mood been low to e max.. cried my lungs out.. BLARDY HELL! i wish i could stop being so emo.. CAN I?? stop being emo xiaowee.. =) smiles..

maybe is my fault.. i'm juz being selfish.. i'm juz being too inconsiderate abt ppl's feeling.. =( he felt hurt to e max.. i felt so miserable too.. things din turn out to be negative.. so negative.. why?? =( i tot i would feel better after telling e truth =( sigh.. i'm so wrong..

he went out for a drink.. and he dunno how worried i am.. u noe e feeling of lost?? LOST?? wen u called him.. e fone is either off, canot get thru or nv ans.. HOW COULD IT BE?? =( even no reply to sms.. WTF! i juz feel like killing someone tt moment.. blaaaaa

gt home @ 5+ last night.. thx a million n everything @ changi =) huggsss..

lost my appetite today.. =( nothing goes in.. juz feels so bitter in my tongue.. WHY? juz tried to ate some bao this afternoon before nap.. n i'm sleepy now after my nap again.. tml gonna work.. YAWN.. gonna turn in earlyy later =)

XiaoHui (= ;

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

mentos offered by darling veron =P cute arrangement? LOL

i'm chewing!! =P ultra-licious mentos.. HAHA

there she's.. HOW CUTE SHE IS!! HAHA =X

SMILEs.. xiaohui veronica.. LURVE HER!

ooP! who do i loook like? LOL.. some dumb asS??

another dumb look.. HAHA.. nothing to do @ work.. SIANX....

watched DIE HARD 4.0 today.. MUAHA! nice movie.. i swear! =X recommended.. GO WATCH.. GO GO GO!!!

Well.. its real boring @ work today.. been @ e front desk e whole day.. sigh.. BORING.. nobody there to save me too..

sry wilson.. put u aeroplane to zouk =( i'll pay u back.. ARG! huggs k? =) VroOoM! i'm OFF! BUByEeE! =P

XiaoHui (= ;

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

vRoOoM! knock to my blog =)

went top to toe beauty colleage today.. spend almost half of my precious time there.. sigh.. reached there abt 10.. and manage to go off @ 4+.. spend 3quater of my time waiting for e principal to talk to me.. WHY?!?! she's god damn busy =(

attend e seminar from 11 to 1.. abt e aroma therapy and courses.. pretty interesting.. but so EX! -.- 2hours session cost abt 300 bucks.. GOSH! whr to dig my money?? arg.. study my CIDESCO 1st..

dealed settled =) yeay..

DAMN! and my mood is fuckingly bad today =( bad cramp strikes me! sigh.. =( everything feels so uncomfortable.. WHY WHY WHY?? i wan to become a GUY! can e god turn me into a guy?? so there's no monthly pain.. ARG!

i shop till gonna die today.. and nobody there to SAVE me.. WHY?!?! =( sad to e max.. i spend 6hrs there ALONE?!?! im lonely.. i'm so lonely.. LONELYyYYYyYyyYyyyyyyyyyy

XiaoHui (= ;

Monday, July 16, 2007

darling diana and xiaohui (=.. luv her to bits =)
taken @ century toilet.. =P
bOo! met up wif my darling.. YEY! spend e whole day wif her @ town.. woohoo!!

sigh.. guess wad i bought for myself today.. A BOX OF PLASTER onLY!! WHY WHY WHY?!?!?! ARG! cuz i hurt my thumb.. =( and bought nothing else.. sigh..

darling bought a bag and a slipper.. SIGH! WHY I BOUGHT nothing.. ARG! wadeva.. e mango top it too ex for me to buy.. NO CASH!! =D

we had our suki sushi @ cineleisure =) ultra-licious ones.. lurve e somen.. HAHA =X forever somen.. =P

so many things to catch up. GOSH! juz feel so loved wen met her up.. hoho.. we talk so much abt our lifes and sorts.. all memories shall kept in.. =) inside my heart =D

after tt went back to tamp.. look up for jack @ metro =) damn him.. I SHALL NOT SAY ANYMORE.. =( went shopping @ tamp awhile.. and headed home.. VrOoOoM!

XiaoHui (= ;

Saturday, July 14, 2007

girls @ powerhse =P VrOoOmM!!! =D me wif my GOLD hair =X

cant remember this babe's name.. but she's fucking FRIENDLY!

xiaohui n xiaopang.. met on e TRAIN =D

randon shots of me before going out =X oopx.. i'm self-loved..

xiaohui jeraldine @ powrhse toilet =X shots time..

still in e toilet =X

SAY CHEESE =X MUAHASs.. i'm fat..

after rounds of dancing n drinking =X our faces turn RED RED RED hot chilli! =D

powerhse is fun as usual =) well.. hate e music tt night.. din expected it was trance music.. which is.. so-not-my-type of music.. yahs.. dance like some dude dancing.. =X MUAHAs..

wasnt feeling well after some alcohol.. perhaps due to empty stomach again.. yahs.. gastic comes to me again.. dizziness.. FARK =X

finally get to met up JERALDINE! miss her fuckingly loads.. =X oops.. HUG HER TILL DEATH! hohohohooooo..

surprisingly.. i bought a group of 20girls exactly to powerhse.. GOSH! none of dem been there.. and i'm DAMN SHOCK! 20 u noe?!?!?! e counter is like.. CHECK here n there.. i was like "WOW" lols.. inclusive me.. 21.. =) went in wif free entrance of some sickly card.. ya.. FREE anyway.. so i dun care.. spend some on drinks.. =D

non-smoking club is DAMN healthy =D lurving it.. thinking back of e old clubs.. damn it.. SMOKE here n there.. FARK it.. i've quit =X juz few weeks ago.. so it doesn affect me @ all.. HAHA.. i saw ppl who smokes actually went outside.. so SADDD =X oops..

VrOOOMMM!!

XiaoHui (= ;