Lost In Beauty-

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

i was bored wen i was back home after work =)

i MISS bad badtx MARU.. SCREAM! i juz cant resist it lah.. =(

yawn.. juz woke up after a nap since 7 till 9plus (now).. im feeling freaking sleepy.. gonna go back to sleep after i update my bloggy.. HOHO..

morning's meeting is chaos.. oh gosh. maybe ill get used to it soon =)

omg LAH! i saw this charming guy this morning.. he gotta TANN skin, kinda nice figure(i like), DIMPLES!!! (most impotantly). but not very tall.. wasted man.. LMAO LMAO! ill haf my karma.. SHIT!

hoho! saturday drinking again? =D =D im looking foraward wif e fun wif jeraldine, benson n andy laH! =D

lastly.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY bizhu.. =D u've turn 21! old liao loh piggy.. LOL =X

and

and...

HAPPY HALLOWEEN ppl! =P =P =P

XiaoHui (= ;

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

u left faster den u come. its last goodbye

she standby me. its sepia.

u left and i walk away without footprints =)

shades on me to cover my tearing eyes.

BoO! sorry for posting all e emo pictures.. HAA =X

yes! finally dl my damn VLC player.. last night was kinda irritated getting a AVI. format player.. damn it.. i was happily and willingly downloading my player. den someone says he wanna send me thru msn.. ok.. so i cancel my dl and accept his sendings..

arg! fustration strikes me..

1. it fucking slow

2. it cant be transfered @ all

3. its freaking me out.

4. he asked me to try windows ver 8.1 (its doesn support my format)

5. results.. after 2 hrs. i still din manage to get my bloody player.

FARK!

and he makes me feels like as if im so dumb. know nuts abt computer.. nabeisssss... I JUZ FORMAT MY COMPUTER LAH! and its not a sharing computer can.. CHEEBYE. wad nb restriction should i have? not dl-ing things to my own computer.

cheebye.. i was fucking irritated lor.. nabei. probably i noe more abt computer den u can? bah.

sorry for all e vulgarties.

and today. i asked my bro for recommendation. yes! my player is dl within a min! bloody hell.. its so diff to ppl whom dunno abt computer den someone who know alot abt computer. diff is.. 2hrs i get nothing.. and i get something in a min.. NABEI!

arg! tml got one meeting in e fucking morning.. gotta reach by 9! ARG! im so sad lah! so early.. gotta turn in early man.. SCREAM!

im off to bed.. CIAOZZ!!

BoOoM! he's gone after tt call.. missing in two days again..

XiaoHui (= ;

Monday, October 29, 2007

look @ my new LV tissue pouch.. LOL.. my father actually bought this home for ME.. =P luv him man.. =P

my laptop is back to me.. HEE!! love my brother too.. HHOHO!!! miss my badz badtz maru, songs and all e PHOTOS! really miss all those!!! =(

TADA! my new external harddisk.. HOHO! happy to e max lah.. =P i swear i luv my brother man.. HEE!

yesterday ate cafe cartel wif my brother n mother.. HOHO! juz so enjoyable lah. .dey waited for me for an hour juz to eat wif me.. ARG! so sorry.. i went for my facial @ helen's place ma.. so.. kinda late.. =( thx for waiting.. =P luv mummy and korkor toTHEmax.. HEE!

arg! its raining today.. hate it.. and i got a little scolding from e frontdesk.. cuz i was a little late.. sorrY! im not someone who is always late.. cuz i met her to work.. and im late cuz i waited.. sian half lor.. sigh..

NOTE!!!
im currently looking for a boyfriend..
requirement...
- tall (1.75 and above)
- a little big size is ok =)
- crap talker
- 23 and above
- bigggg eyes
- sharppp nose
- loaded
- DIMPLES!
- transport supported =X
- completed NS pls.. =X

XiaoHui (= ;

Sunday, October 28, 2007

guess who am i on e fone =( i hate tt person im talkin to.. ASSHOLE!

zhen dong and ernie

jeraldine =) & xiaohui =)

two dumb dumb.. LOL

wow.. happily taking pictures =X

i was once taken with GUCCI.. now im with LV.. =P soon will be chanel..

LV LV LV LV

he's e one who is always there for me wen im down.. thx ernie..

joe is crazy and self cam whoring wif my fone..

zhendong and ernie =)

been days ive now been updating.. =P

last friday.. 261007.. went movie wif yongxiang @ TM. we had "Helloween".. i dun like tt movie.. fullstop.. ARG! fucking gross.. i swear.. =( its not even my appetite.. BLOODY SHOW.. waste my damn money.. ARG! i juz hate it.. =( =( =(

friday friday.. yes! i had my "indian head massage" course done =P im expert in it already k? LOL.. =X indian head massage is interesting lah.. i learn alot on e tradition and e origins of indian head massage..

saturday.. met up wif jeraldine.. and we joined ernie, zhendong, joe and e rest @ clarke quay.. we headed to "liquid".. nice KTV pub.. but e songs allow me to flash back so much memories.. =( sob lah.. ARG!

after tt we headed to DBL O.. met up wif benson and andy.. DBL O on saturday is fun.. i swear.. its helloween MAN!.. =P im all dirty!! ARG! ppl there r so fun tt night.. oh gosh.. juz tt my mood wasnt good thou.. thx for e fun with those guys man.. thx for all e BLOOD on my face, neck and hand.. thx for e glitters all over my body and HAIR.. arg.. it took me sometimes to wash off MAN! damn it.. im so thankFUL! i had fun! serious.. and benson was drunk.. LOL.. fucking cute la.. =X

forget to talk picture of bloody of myself.. shit man.. LOL.. i look real gross. i swear.. my mom saw me.. and tot i murdered somebody.. cuz my WHITE shirt is stain as well.. SCREAM!

today i had my facial session.. HOHO!.. my breakouts r all removed.. thx HELEN!! luv u loads k? MUACKS! hee..

XiaoHui (= ;

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

i hate this feeling.

fullstop.

after that long chat on e fone..

BOOM! he's gone for two days. dunno wad happen. he's no where to be seen.. he's juz gone. neither sms-es or calls. bah!

its always conflicts during work. communication is fucking important i muz highlight this. when there is no communication, information is not notified, students get wrong info n all e blame comes to e reception. dumbest thing. when u noe tt its not ur fault, and bad things come to u as info came from other, im pissed man! somemore its from another department alright. i swear she's a whore.

bah. lets not talk abt work. it hits my head off. i swear.

seriously, be it its ur bestie, ur hi-bye friend, ur soulmate, ur bf or gf, ur families.. something i must let everyone noe. i HATE ppl whom make me late for anything else. for example alright.. im suppose to meet "A" to go work together.. we suppose to meet 9 @ small mac, this timing is juz nice for me to reach my work place without late... 10more mins i miss e train and im late for work. and she's jolly well late for tt 10mins.. FARK! there goes my temper. im fucked up alright. im late cuz i waited to "A".. that's no un-explainable.. -.-'' its not like one time or two times alright.. fucking almost everytime.

seriously, she's pissing me up n down.

i think i had this little bad temper of me. i juz hate to be late for anything else. be it work, dates or juz dinner or wad so ever. juz dun be late. i HATE it toTHEmax alright. so dun mess wif me wif all e "lates".. dun be fren wif me if u r those who always late for EVERYTHING!

XiaoHui (= ;

Monday, October 22, 2007

sometimes i would think lah.. seriously do i need someone by my side.. maybe my another half...? BUT! why do i feel tat its like not important @ all.. =( or i juz dun need him @ e moment. i juz think alot lah.. =(

e feeling come n go.. it go fast.. and stay long.

i would think.. would we last? i heard so much from my colleagues, students.. from all ages.. indeed. im still sooooo young man.. 19!! im 19 alright.. still a young teenager.. ooPs! i mean young adult.. LOL.. long way to gooooo... tts wad i heard and somehow change wad im thinking.. im young.. yes.. BUT! im juz so worried if one day im unable to get married or something.

[*touch wood.] if i would to live another 2 more yrs onli.. wad would i do? in e movie of "1 litre of tears" .. her dream was to get married.. wad abt me? SCREAM! bah. dun wanna think. LOL.

he still doesnt makes me feel e importance of me lah!

maybe i shall gave up

and

make my feelings fade

away. =)

and

seriously..

move on =)

work is damn tiring..

i swear.. damn it..

im slack of sleep. im serious..

i juz cant get enuff of sleep =(

wad happen to e world sometimes..

or maybe juz ppl around me.

everything seems so unusual.

unusual things happened.

and juz so...

coincidence..

all e things juz happen on e same time..

same time..

JUST same time..

WHY!

XiaoHui (= ;

Sunday, October 21, 2007

jeraldine , xiaohui , serene =D
we beloved loves.. i luv dem toTHEmax lah.. =) mainly from lagunita =P shant not list dem out..

yesterday i had so much fun alright.. cant believe it.. for once.. i finally eat ALOT ALOT of food.. its hari raya.. got beeleng actually cook loads loads of fooooood.. YUM! slurp! but.. i still luv e chocolate e most lah.. chocolate cereal.. YUM! cook more cook more of tat..

so much of catch up wif e rest.. oh GOSH! talk talk talk non-stop lah..

and my LEG IS FUCKING pain.. =(

meet up wif darling today =) nice.. =P we had our shopping spree..

both of us is juz so tired lah. oh gosh.. and our legs hurts wif e damn harmful heels.. after whole day of shopping.. i nv even manage to buy a single thing.. im so sad can =(

but we does loads of catch up.. HOHO! e whole day we've been chatting alright..

nevertheless.. i had my ULTRA-LICIOUS donuts from donut factory =D its as yummy and ever.. hoho.. double chocolate is fantastic.. HO!HO!

*** when he =D like that.. i also =D like that

XiaoHui (= ;

Friday, October 19, 2007

bOo!
my blog is open again =D
finally i got e time to blog.. WeEe!!!

everyday is tiring for me.. FARK MAN.
so fast.. its 19th october already.. arg. im still living in september.. WHY?!?! im still sleeping in september.. [wakes me up when september ends] =D

my mood is so so so so so much better =D im happy.. happilicious things r happening to me.. =P
like i always say.. good things always comes to an end fast. =P
im gonna fight for my happilicious.. WoOhoOooooooooooooo =P

shit.. im fucking angry today.
i was e model for this coming CIDESCO exam.
wad am i suppose to do was juz be their guinea pig..
things tt had done to me.
-Bikini waxing [its fuckin pain]
- leg waxing [ e temperature is totally canot make it]
- facial [rough hand, i taste e cleansing milk -.- ]
- upper massage [ massage is alright]
- make up [i look like clown]
- manicure n pedicure. [ compared to all e above, this is e best]

ALL CANNOT MAKE IT LAH! i look like ghost after e make up.. god damn it.. if she gonna graduate.. im gonna complain lah.. shit man.. e way she apply foundation, mascara, blusher.. SHIT MAN! especially e BLUSHER! makes me like some red clown man! damn it.. its CIDESCO alright.. its not like NITEC or wadeva exam lehs.. walau eh.. F.A.I.L LAH!

last thing =)
HAPPY BDAE TO YONG XIANG!
tml is his bdae.. 20th october.. =)
well.. he's not in town.
so no more present for him.
im broke too.
i juz bought my neccessaries today..
im annouced broke.
wish u all e best!
and remember u own me some good food lah!
=D

XiaoHui (= ;

Monday, October 15, 2007

work is busy for me today.
hardly stop working.
hardly eat my lunch.
hardly drink a sip of water.
im still feeling terrible. =(

went jogging earlier on.
e smell of e grass ..
e smell of e sweat..
e smell of e air..
e smell of e moon.
everything is fantastic.
=)

im perfectly fine..
dun worry ppl.. i swear i can be better =) im strong.. i overcome once.. im able to overcome twice.. thrice.. or even 100th =) everything juz tk time to heal. time is everything to me. yes.. everything to me.
@ least he told me he understand totally. but wats e point. u still cant do anything.. u r busy. u r stress. u got no time. whr do i stand? i din even mention ur heart.. juz somewhr.. maybe ur small potion of ur brain. why do i stand? maybe juz inside ur kidney or wad so ever. u still wun think of me..
u onli think of me wen u got nothing to do. thats all.
all e tears i shed is enuff.. i swear.
im not trying to emo or wad.
tt's how deep u kill me.

i swear.
im a girl who doesn cry easily.
im a girl who doesn fall in luv easily.
im a girl who get hurt fast.
im a girl who is easily being happy.
im soft hearted [to certain things]
im a girl who luv sweet stuffs..
u understand me.
i swear.
u noe wad i wan.
u juz dun bother.
thats it.

XiaoHui (= ;

Sunday, October 14, 2007

we had donuts before gg to e beach @ pasir ris =)
e weather is fine.. i luv it.. seriously =)

look how pretty it is.. =)

wen e sun sets.. i became emo =(
wen emo strikes me.. my tears began to flow..

scenery @ night is as pretty as e bright.. =)
bah..

my mood isnt improving.

to summarize all.

i luv jeraldine.

thx for being there. =)

my tears juz flow wen i smell e beach.

i juz dun understand why.

secondly.

i wanna thx rex.

seriously.

im sorry.

i always find u wen im down.

which i think im so wrong.

im sorry. =(

i wanna thx a million to u.

i felt so much better.

he finally respond to me.

i cried like some dumb.

e moment i hear his voice.

i juz broke down.

why?

things still din solve thou.

sadded.

im not cheer up @ all.

bye.

XiaoHui (= ;

Saturday, October 13, 2007

plate & chopsticks =)

our fantastic feast @ SOME korea cuisin =)

SLURP!

im all full.. =P

jeraldine & xiaohui =)

trying my very best to smile

she's there wen im down =(

bOo! we took it in a neo print machine =P

trying to smile hard

how do u spell smile?? " E.L.I.M.S?? dunno anymore.

ive been dazing e whole day out wif jeraldine darling. my heart isnt wif me throughout e day. my heart is juz not wif me.

this should not affect me tt much.

it shouldn.

it was me who decides it.

why am i sad?

stupid.

keep thinking e things tt he told me few days ago.

but?

everything gone juz one day.

was it my fault?

no.

its his lost.

not mine.

he doesn appreciate @ all.

why should i give in?

i juz cant believe ur words anymore.

im sad.

seriously.

im sad,

one word describe me now.

melancholy.

went blading earlier on.

my tears juz flow uncontrollable.

i cried.

seriously.

i shouldnt.

im juz being dumb.

im setting a torn to myself.

i juz cried.

cried so badly.

i fell.

i sat on e floor n cry.

i muz be insane.

XiaoHui (= ;

Friday, October 12, 2007

we r quit
BYE.

i dun understand why i could trust ur words in e 1st place.
which i think i shouldnt
bahs.
im so blind.
thx god i retrive myself.

im walkin out of u.
u dunno how i feel.
dun speak e word love to me.
dun speak e word miss to me.
dun speak e word need to me.

speak e word hurt to me.
allow me to understand.

im dumb enuff. i swear.
once n once again.
u treat me this way.
bah..
im out!
we r quit!
nv again.

slap me if i do.

u nv understand.
nv..
nv..
nv...
u still make my tears flow like a river..

XiaoHui (= ;

fark.

im unhappy.

10001things tt made me unhappy.

i said.

good things come n go.

bye "good things"

time?

wads abt time?

history really repeats =(

im sad.

fucking sad.

he wun understand.

bah

will u:-

-understand me more?

-give me wad i wan?

-be sweet?

-give me more attention?

-allow me to trust u more?

its nv will.

bye.

XiaoHui (= ;

Thursday, October 11, 2007

yes!
im juz happy =)
everything makes me happy thou.
im luving it =)
but
good things always come to an end fast.

work is tiring as usual. =( sadden.
bought a new dress today.
annouced im broke now.

im happy.
im gonna meet bibi this saturday for dinner. =)
contented.

i shall plan something for sunday =)
groom groom grooooming for my love..
lilo =)

bah..
no pic today.
my hair is turning ash green. WHY?

XiaoHui (= ;

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

im sad..
im sad..

my brother is stealing my laptop.. =(
he's bringing my laptop to his camp.
SCREAM!
anyone help me..
im juz sad. =( =( =(

baah..
i had my strong feeling..
feeling that makes me so "phobia"
history repeating?
i still dun get enuff attention from him
or im asking too much?
i juz feel so-like-history.
like e past how he treated me.
why?
=(

its nv enuff..
its nv..

XiaoHui (= ;

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

look @ this piece of art.. look carefully.. u find something there =) and i swear i hate to see that.. =( =( =(

xiao hui & jeraldine =)

on my way to work.. my hair is BLUE! not black.. stupid camera is lousy..

i got BLUE hair lah! SHIT CAMERA.. =X xiaohui jeraldine =)

why do i look like this.. oh pls.. =( =( can i make myself over?? SCREAM!

i dyed my hair last night.. yeah! and its blue.. SCREAM! why did it turn out so black in e photo.. its not suppose to be like this.. sigh.. and EVERYONE is saying my new colour is nicer den a GOLD hair.. LOL =X

more "xiao jie" right? HOHO! and e BLUE colour is driving my nuts lah.. it stain my shirt n towel.. EVERYWHR! sigh..

went "metropolan chinese herbal restaruant" @ clarke Quey.. ULTRA ex restaruant alright.. almost drive me nuts wen i see e bill.. 6 of us went.. and it cost us 300+ total bill.. i was like.. WOW! and seriously we din ate much thou.. WHY SO EXPENSIVE! but i shant deny tt e food is nice.. =P SLURP!

its an advance celebration for my ah ma's bdae.. its her bdae tml.. 10th Oct =) Happy bdae AH MA! =P luv her loads..

XiaoHui (= ;